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2020.05.04 11:52 UnluckyTea31 I start to feel fishy with my stepdad
He came to my life when I was 10. Grew up with the lack of fatherly figure, he did gave me attention and care that I needed.
I don't know or not sure what is wrong with me but maybe my red flag detector is just broken. I was molested a few times by my male relatives during my teenage years (11-17) so I don't really know how to tell whether these male relatives are a threat to me or not. I have slept with 6 guy friends cramped up in a room before and they never did anything to me while these relatives touched me inappropriately without hesitation to the point that I just start to see male relatives are more dangerous than male friends. I would get panic attacks to any male relatives exclude my dad, stepdad and a few of my favourite uncles.
Although, I start gaining red flags with my stepdad. I seriously do not want to see him as a bad guy here but he just seem to be going right into my senses that I should be careful with him.
I had my first real and sexual boyfriend when we were 16. I got him some explicit nude photos of me and so does him. I do arts too, so I tend to send him lewd and sexual drawings for his opinion. I know pretty wild but we were just dumb lmao. My real dad decided to buy me a new phone since he said that my current phone at that time was outdated, so I got one. Usually, if I get new gadgets, I would give my previous gadgets to my stepdad since he's like a tech wiz/geek and he's pretty good at it. I swore I have reset factory/formatted my phone already. 6 months after giving him my formatted phone, he confronted me alone that he found my nudes in that phone. I tried to retrace my mind whether I have formatted my phone and I really remembered I did. I don't know how he found it and I just admit I've been explicit with my boyfriend, just visually. I mean yeah, it's my fault for being sexually active in a young age, but it's just so disturbing to know that he saw my body like that. I do hope that he deleted it and not keeping it....So I shrugged it off and thinking I might've been stupid and thinking I didn't format my phone after all.
On age 18, I started working and the one who would always pick me up is my stepdad. We're always alone at the car otw back, nothing bad happened but he just starts to be 'open-minded' to me. Talking sexual and adult topics, he ever brought up about his sex life before my mom with me too. I was quite naive, thinking he's just treating me as an adult that I should know about things like these from him and it's okay to talk about it. I was quite okay and comfortable when he talks about him and his girls back then. Sometimes, he would come to me and my sister's room to ask for a massage especially on his sides and legs since he gets quite cramp-y or sore. I still shrug this off tbh, see no harm to it.
A few years later, I have another boyfriend who lives quite nearby. He would visit me at home when I'm doing commissions alone while everyone is out for job and school. We get quite cuddly at home and fact, our house have installed CCTV inside, which therefore no sense of privacy at any corner of the house except the rooms. I seriously hate this idea of installing CCTV inside the house. Anyways, I forgot to turn off the CCTV at that time and well, one night, my stepdad suddenly messaged me and screenshot of me cuddling my boyfriend on the couch. I got shocked, contacted my boyfriend to apologise to my stepdad about the incident too. I start to feel a lot more uncomfortable cause he get to see me being sweet and cuddly with my boyfriend.
The moment that triggered me and got me finally (maybe) put the puzzles together, that I was sitting alone at the living room, enjoy texting with my boyfriend. My stepdad came to the living room and sat beside me on the couch. I was pretty okay with it. Note that this happened the night before he sent me the screenshot of me and my boyfriend cuddling. He was talking to me more about sexual stuffs and what was weird is that, he told me that he has been sexually frustrated with my mom since she always rejects his invitation. That he kept and watch porn in his phone, and he masturbates to it at times. Like I DO NOT NEED TO KNOW THAT. I was feeling a little too uncomfortable with the whole conversation, I just wanted it to end. He also did confessed that he tried to not have a crush on us girls and think of himself as a responsible dad, but I don't need to know that too. Why do you have to tell me that? I was completely bothered by it....
Skip to recent, I confronted to my sister about this matter, the reason why I don't really like going back home anymore. I feel unsafe and I feel like I'm being watched for anything I do. She confessed to me that she feels the same too and that's why she lives elsewhere. My sister told me that she had the same thing happened to her about resetting/formatting gadgets and gave it to him. She had pictures of her and her boyfriend in that laptop before, but she already formatted it before giving it to him. Suddenly, he confronted her that he found pictures of her and her boyfriend from the laptop. WHICH IS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE THERE. That's where I start to see that, he tried very hard, to find what's inside my phone when I formatted it. That's where I knew, it wasn't my fault and I was already careful enough about my privacy. That's where I learned that he breached my privacy by recovering my formatted phone.
I am completely bothered and I don't know if I am paranoid due to past molestation. Maybe I'm just really paranoid and over exaggerate this problem, but what do you think? He does have a fatherly care to me but, I just can't overlook the fact that he raided my privacy, saw my nudes and even told me that he's sexually frustrated with mom. I decided to live far away from family just so I feel a lot more safer being alone and not watched.
tl;dr: as i grew older, my stepdad found out about my explicit photos in my phone. He has been openly talking sexual and adult topics with me and I think that it's just a form of a normal 'open-minded' father. Although looking back, I'm not sure whether it was just friendly talks or it was suggestive. Please help.
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2020.02.11 15:43 throw-away-pr0n Cctv porn sex
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Struggling a bit and feel like I need I’ve not admitted to myself. Here’s a list of what I’ve done in the pursuit of porn for from the age of 12/13;
Torrented and pirated videos
Found gay bdsm dating sites and got off on the content
Taken voyeuristic pictures of hot girls to fap to later on work camera - swapped out the memory card after doing so I didn’t get caught
Saved random girls photos from Facebook to fap to
Joined and deleted porn sharing forum memberships multiple times
Spent hours and days waiting to download pirated porn from file sharing sites edging the whole time
Downloaded GBs of porn and hidden on my pc
Kept backups on thumb drives and external drives
Had browsers on my phone specifically for porn
Had password protected VLC on my iPad so I could store porn videos there
Created multiple porn email addresses and twitter accounts to sign up for content
Spend $100s on niche porn and humiliation videos then deleted them after cumming
Spent days organising my collection, tagging it, researching actors
Edged myself in sessions that would last the whole weekend, ‘forcing’ myself to watch as much porn that I’d gathered as possible
Watched porn in the bathroom at work
Used google images to find triggering images when I’ve been at work computers
Used my porn twitter account to lust after dominatrixes and DM then
Created a ‘Slave’ alter ego on twitter, fetlife, image fap etc and posted content there
Emailed dominatrixes about booking sessions
Sent online $ tributes to a dominatrix
Paid for a dominatrixes only fans
Written porn stories to get myself off
Kept notes on my phone of fantasises based on porn
Had an RSS feed on my phone so I can keep track of when new clips comes out
Memorised my favourite stars, websites and clips and obsessively checked for new content
Watched porn while working from home or studying
Watched porn and masturbated while my partner slept next to me
Made ASMR porn/triggering playlists and spent hours listing to them while in self bondage
Dressed alone in fetish gear and watched porn for hours
Streamed porn over my car Bluetooth to listen to while driving
Had a second phone/sim so I could verify adult accounts
Found passwords for porn sites and site ripped the entire site to add to my collection
Paid for subscriptions to porn sites
Created a fake second PayPal so I could transfer money from my main account incognito and use to buy porn
Spent $100s on erotic photo books
Been to sex museums in multiple cities
Fapped while sniffing a work colleagues boots she left behind
Used work cctv to zoom in on girls, saved the footage and fapped later at work
Taken photos of girls from the window at work to fap to later
Researched online to find a porn stars private fb/identity and address
Been to fetish club nights to watch people
Been to sex conventions
Been to sex/fetish fairs
Spent $100s on sex toys and latex clothing for partners
Had custom sex toys made and visited the maker to collect
Fapped on webcam for friends on chat Screenshotted friends on chat and saved to fap to Screenshotted friends stories to fap to
Hooked my Laptop up to TVs and projectors so I could get it more immersive Watched VR porn
Followed models and photographers on fb and curated my feed so I’d see it first
Searched for porn on my phone while sat on the sofa with partner, out and on vacation
Paid for a VPN to hide my activity
Joined dating sites to find photos to fap to
Arranged fetish shoots with partner
Worked for free for a porn site on their website
Made my own amateur site for partner Signed up to be a reseller of sex toys Added local models/sex shop workers on personal fb
Let me know if you can relate - how much of this is healthy and normal?! I’ve hidden this from everyone I know.
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I am a faded exJW who is now an Atheist.
However, I didn't view much "apostate material" until some time after I faded.
I figured it'd be interesting to see what you have to say about my story and about my former congregation as a whole.
I should begin by giving you some background info. When I was 12 I slowly began "to be ensnared by the Devil"(TM) into watching Pornography. However, I "knew" it was "wrong" and I would always try to fight it and deny ever doing it. By 16 I got accepted into college (UK) which pushed me academically much harder than secondary school/high school ever did. It got to the point that halfway through my first year I became clinically depressed. At the time, I made a PIMI friend (Let's call her G1) who would have become my girlfriend if we had continued our relationship. Sometime after we had become close friends, my "facade" began to slip up and I'l let my depression show in front of her. At first she tried to help me out by encouraging me that Jehovah will make things better.
At around this time, I confessed about my tendencies to an elder (E1). They organised a JC and questioned me with my father present regarding the type of porn I'd watch. As you'd expect, in those 4 years since I started I discovered many fetishes, and having to describe them in great detail in front of my father and 2 elders wasn't the most comfortable thing to do. I joked to myself that maybe they were getting off on it since they can't view it themselves. After that, they checked up on me once or twice to see how I was coping with my "new" counter-strategy. Their council helped me for about two months (until a bit after my Baptism) however that wasn't very long lived since "pray more about it", "try harder" and "try avoiding situations that could get you into it" were strategies I was aware of since I was 5.
G1 and I would let our passion take ahold of us every now and again and we got - by JW standards - dangerously close. That being said, we never even kissed and rarely ever hugged. Eventually her parents got really worried about her reputation, because "even if you don't do anything wrong, if someone sees you two alone they might imagine things and spread rumors". I was taken very aback by this because I always thought that most important is reputation with Jehovah and that we should not fear what Men say about us. I was quite surprised that they lived their life without ever allowing for a situation where members of the opposite sex are left alone. There have been situations in my life where me and some girl were asked to deliver something alone or when some sister was dropping me off home etc. so not being allowed to be alone with a girl sounded ridiculous and I thought of it as an excuse to distance their daughter from me.
In the background of everything that was going on, a Bethelite was still studying the Young People Ask Book #2 with me and once we finished I was considered for Baptism. I was hoping that by being baptized that God will help me out in case my porn addiction ever returns. After doing the questions and getting baptized, however, it didn't take very long for me to fall back into my addiction.
G1 and I kept in touch and I was becoming more and more dramatic/emotional/depressed. Due to stress from college, pressure to preach more often as well as the weird circumstances with G1, I would sometimes lash out at myself, mutilating myself. G1 found out about it and told E1 about it. He took me out to a bar and we had a little chat on the subject, but there wasn't much follow up after that.
Some time later, I was told by G1 and her mother that I should not keep contact with G1 until I "sort myself out". Having a figurative door slammed in my face didn't do good for me. I was so overtaken by this and by negative thoughts that I was close to throwing myself under an oncoming train. (Blessed be the security worker that saw me on CCTV pacing up and down the platform and came down to me to ask if I was alright. After telling her everything and crying on her shoulder I went home without ever seeing her again)
(So far the events described above happened within about a year)
About a year and few more suicide attempts later, I finished college and gotten into a decent uni that put much less pressure on me. I slowly, gradually, gotten better. I contacted E1 again regarding my porn addiction, but this time - at least to my knowledge - there was no JC formed that I was invited to. Instead, E1 gave me the same council as he did before. Again, the followup was limited to 2 texts in the span of 2 weeks to encourage me to avoid it.
A couple of months later I felt good enough to contact G1 (Depression relapses still occur to this day). At first G1 was very hesitant and careful when talking to me. She asked me to first talk with her mother and only message her once her mother approves. After getting the a-ok from her mother we resumed our relationship.... Or at least I was hoping for that. In those 18 or so months, her interests greatly changed from what they were. We no longer had any Games we could play together, we had no shows we'd both enjoy, we had no food we both liked, no longer was she passionate about learning a certain language and we had no music genres we both enjoyed. She mostly stopped gaming with the only game she'd play being Overwatch (You'll see why this is hypocritical of her soon), she'd spend a lot of time watching K-Dramas and listening and dancing to K-Pop. Most importantly, however, she became much more pious. She followed JW doctrine to the point where if something was in a moral gray zone, then she'd rather avoid it (Overwatch? It's violence, no? Much worse than Terraria which she told me off for being too bloody). Better be safe than sorry I suppose.
She became a vegetarian because "life is sacred" and "we must respect the gift of life" as well as because "we must not taint our bodies with what's unclean". She took this so seriously that she'd decide my meal for me (We went to a restaurant once). At one time she went through my Steam account to look at my games, then she had a go at me for owning "Satanic"/Horror games (I haven't payed any of the ones she brought up in a couple of years, and some of them I've never played at all (Play time information is displayed next to game title)(Bought those games during a Steam sale in a bundle) yet it was important for her to bring it up because I own them)
Her extreme pious views had made a negative impression on me. I never want to meet someone as extreme as her. Unfortunately for me, JW doctrine is the same everywhere so chances are that more JWs are just as "faithful". This and the situation in my Congregation didn't make me very enthusiastic about being a JW any more. As a result I was thinking of fading. The plan was to silently move away without telling the Elders, hence they wouldn't be able to transfer my data to a congregation in my new area.
A word about my congregation:
Despite having been in that congregation since the previous congregation split about 8 years prior, I barely new anyone there. I knew most if not all faces and knew most of their names but I've practically never talked with most of them. In my congregation I tried making friends a couple of times. C1 was too busy with schoolwork to hang out, C2 was just visiting us for a few weeks, C3 would always change the subject and not listen much to anything, C4 was almost twice my age and at work most of the time etc. The closest person I had to a friend was E1 who had interesting things to say of a variety of subjects and would always listen. The down side was that 1) It was always professional/formal and 2) He'd mostly ever talk with me if I had done something wrong (Not enough ministry or the like).
Having no friends in the congregation I felt abandoned by Jehovah. My mother told me that I shouldn't expect anything since the brothers and sisters are all humans who can't read minds and have their own lives to care about. While that's true, I do expect that the one who reads the hearts and the one called the God of Love would be able and willing to send someone, anyone. For 2+ years of my depression I had not experienced any love or security from within the stronghold of the "god of love". Surely, then, Jehovah doesn't love me - I thought. Without having depression as potential explanation, I began to truly believe that I had done too much to be forgiven. And while I didn't think that Jehovah hated me or wanted me destroyed, I did think, feel and believe that, like the rest of the congregation, he wouldn't care if I died in Armageddon.
With that in mind I started missing meetings. At first I was using my Anxiety and an excuse (I could feel my heart racing all the time. I was panicking for the whole duration of the meeting and I had to leave the meeting a couple of times early to clam myself down) I was terrified of what others would be thinking of me. I assumed that somehow someone knew about my tendencies and I became paranoid that everyone around me is just as pious as G1. I felt like I was at the edge of a cliff for the entire duration of the meeting. With time this paranoia went away, however I didn't resume regular meeting attendance. My family tried to encourage me, but my sister was worried about me so she didn't want to pressure me to go. My mother at that time was attending a different congregation because of work and so I was almost entirely free to miss meetings. Later when my mum's work schedule changed she tried to get me to come by inviting me to dinner right after the meeting. I did come a few times but I wasn't fond of my mother due to slightly unrelated reasons (Though it's dishonest to deny the involvement of the Borg in my upbringing (We're on good terms now, despite me having left the Borg))
G1, however continued doing what she did. She'd message me, checking up that I prepared my Watchtower or if I have watched the latest Broadcasting video. Lying to her got quite annoying for me pretty fast, however. Because of this and many alike reasons, we started arguing a lot. At one point around 75% of our conversations were arguments (One of which was regarding the existence of the hymen. She accused all scientists and doctors of lying (Satan rules the world after all)) I've had enough of her and I decided to end our "future plans to be together". Quite surprisingly, however, she never expected that and she was confused as to why I'd want to break up our relationship (We never even courted though) I told her that I wanted to remain friends (I genuinely wanted that. Friend = loose meaning for good acquaintance) I tried to help her out whenever she needed help and I tried being kind to her as much as I could. However our relationship slowly faded (She contacted me recently though (1.5 years later) and she still hasn't gotten over me)
Sometime after breaking it off with G1, I was admitted into a hospital with an unknown condition. Its effect was pretty much identical to that of kidney stones as my ureter was blocked, just not by kidney stones. I kept coming in and out of the hospital with plenty of procedures and scans. Due to all of that I had an excuse to stay home from the meetings and Uni. Apart from my "worldly" friend I have known for 11+ years, and for my family, nobody came to visit me. That is until there was a slight chance for a blood transfusion. Guessed who showed up. E1 with another elder and their families were my first and only visitors. After that I got a few "encouraging calls" from yet another elder, but nothing substantial. That is how much my spiritual "family" cared for me. That's how much Jehovah cared for me.
This situation continued for about 6-7 months (G1 knew nothing of it, and for good reason. She may be extremely pious and socially awkward, but she did/does care about me too much). That was enough to miss an entire semester of uni (4 entire modules - akin to school subjects) I also missed the end of year exams so I was to do the end of year exams in late summer, that is, about 1-2 months later. Compressing 6+ months of work (+ revision of 4 additional modules from Semester 1) into 2 months put me under great pressure, at times re-awakening my paranoia and depressive state of mind. I used those 2 months to excuse myself from the meetings yet again.
Once it was all over and I finally had some freedom, I tried my best to stay that way. At first I was "encouraged" to come to the meetings but I'd only come sometimes, with the excuse "I'm out of habit and it's hard for me to make it regularly". However, I never increased my meeting attendance beyond 3-4 a month and slowly but surely decreased that to 0. Every now and again my mother would ask me to come but I'd refuse most of the time.
About 2 or 3 months ago, when I was browsing YouTube, I came across some flat earth debunks... then geocentrism debunks... and then I found Viced Rhino. His rebuttal of creationist apologetic intrigued me and before long, a list formed as follows (approximately in order of discovery): DarkMatter2525, Professor Stick, John Cedars, Telltale Atheist, AronRa, Suris, Prophet of Zod, Rationality Rules, Cosmological, Genetically Modified Skeptic, Phase 2 and Noel Plum. All of these, but especially John Cedars, AronRa, Viced Rhino and Telltale Atheist opened my eyes about the Borg and about the Bible. I am really grateful for them for their work. I can't say that "active activism" is for me, but I'll do some "passive activism" if I have the opportunity to help.
After about a month later, I was convinced that JW is a harmful Cult and that the Bible doesn't make any logical sense internally as well as when put against evidence. I've seen many different rebuttals of different arguments and all suggest that there is no God. I told my family that I have "some" issues with the JW doctrine. My sister didn't really want to listen, and my mother told me to cease my research because it'll leave a bad taste in my mouth. Yet, my mother has made a rule that no matter what, we're a family, and she won't shun me and she won't support my sister shunning me (It's unknown whether she would have or not. My mother put her foot down before my sister made her decision)(As for my father, he has faded a while before me as a result of his own story. He was still a believer in some God but after showing him AronRa's rebuttals, he seems to have become an Atheist too)
Thank you all for reading my story. If you have some questions or feedback/suggestions/comments, please do leave them.
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Below are some responses from JWs about things getting worse (or not) in our time based on stats showing that things are actually getting better.
"From bad to worse" is not limited to crime. Bad from Jehovah's standpoint includes moral decay.
I don’t think we need to make a specific proof about crime or any other stats in the ministry. There are so many variables that don’t get measured at all. You might just ask the person if they feel happy with the way things are right now, or if s/he feels that we as a society are on our way to figuring everything out and achieving health, happiness and unity as a global level.
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Aside from actual crime stats, vicious and divisive attitudes are now prevalent. Years back, sure folks had opinions on any given topic yet, they maintained a certain respect for each other. That's gone. People use foul language in speaking about those in high command. PIck any topic - racism, sexual identity, abortion... Any one of these issues could create a "civil war" any day. People are very much divided.
I also question these crime stats. When I was a kid, we registered our bikes. If our bike was ever stolen, a police report was filed and we would give them our bicycle registration number. This was considered a crime and police would search for your stolen bike. Nowadays, if you called the police over a stolen bike, they'd laugh at you for calling!!
Standards have gone down, way down.
I don't believe there are fewer crimes, just fewer people reporting them. Even major corporations assume a certain percentage of loss to their bottom line (EBITDA) due to theft - which is why you don't have to sign your name on many credit card transactions - they assume that XX number are fraudulent, whether it's you or the next guy in line. They no longer care, the loss has already been built into the business model.
Fewer rapes and assaults are being reported - people often feel it's a waste of time to report something because justice seems to have fallen by the wayside.
So, crime stats may ebb & flow but I think the larger picture is attitudes, which the Bible points out, rather than actual numbers of specific crimes.
2 Tim 3:1-4 But know this, that in the last days critical times hard to deal with will be here. 2 For men will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, haughty, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, disloyal,3 having no natural affection, not open to any agreement, slanderers, without self-control, fierce, without love of goodness, 4 betrayers, headstrong, puffed up with pride, lovers of pleasures rather than lovers of God...
Also, bible prophecy doesn't provide stats on health, crime, and government. It gives descriptive word pictures:
"The earth will be filled with violence."
Some of the most popular movie series of the last ten years: Saw. The Purge. A whole genre of films known as 'Torture-Porn' is now on TV, free of charge; go to YouTube to get the most gruesome bits over and over.
"Filled with immorality"
There are stats that teenagers in Asia are not having sex, in record numbers, because the demographics don't balance out, and because the internet gets more face time with them than real people do. But the Porn Industry isn't even taboo anymore, and that's not even counting the stuff you see on TV at every commercial break.
Stats are only half the story. To fill the world with something doesn't mean to inflict it personally on each person. Violent Crime is down, and it's now a form of popular entertainment. Both these things are true.
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Crime in the US did spike slightly from around 2014-2016, but it's down overall since it's peak in the mid 90s. Reference: http://www.pewresearch.org/fact-tank/2018/01/30/5-facts-about-crime-in-the-u-s/
I've also been confronted regarding statistics showing that the rate of deaths from hunger is decreasing, as well as the rate of deaths from many diseases due to improvements in medicine.
Upon such objections I usually ask the person something along the lines of what the OP listed: "Do you feel safer?" "Has humanity ever had the ability to destroy itself completely with the touch of a button?" etc.
How common were home invasions 100 years ago? What about school shootings?
One I used to use as a cab driver was... Which would you prefer..a government which promised to reduce crime or one that promised to eliminate it entirely ?
Reduce sickness or remove it ?
It often got the conversation going.
or 20 years ago, did you see drug deals taking place openly in the street ?
or 20 years ago did we have CCTV cameras in public places and shops and restaurants ?
I just don’t believe statistics. Lots of variables. Whose paying for them. What they are addressing. The level that they go to to get those numbers. People use numbers to their advantage. And, I think statistics can be pretty much the same.
"Do you feel safer than you did even ten years ago?"
"Do you see an increase or decrease in security measures, especially in public places"?
"How long does it take you to board an airplane post 9-11?"
"Are more or less people carrying guns today?"
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Nichkhun: Don't worry guys... I'm not THAT fat yet. HahahahahahThe Starbucks Debacle
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photosta: @CherreenHvk @Khunnie0624 NK got Fat. The problem is I am way Fatttter!! He is still cute tho! Wish I saw u when u were here sister! Miss u
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Khun: I asked a worker at starbucks where I can buy the T shirt she's wearing. She said it's not for sale and I'd have to call the HQ. So I did...Pucho Hands Up
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Fan: what's your personal opinion about same sex relationship? lols
Nichkhun: people should be able to express their love freely. Like mitch and cam in modern family!
Fan: @Khunnie0624 what's your favorite meme?
Taecyeon: Please don't come to sukso... Its the only place where we can relax and rest... yelling our names in the morning only causes troubles for usMiscellaneous
Taecyeon: I strongly ask you NOT to follow or take pictures of my family. Asking for a little bit of privacy please.
Taecyeon: If you have these things called manners and courtesy, stop calling me or messaging me. What you are doing is called invasion of privacy.
Taecyeon: I do not wish to change my phone number because of you. I wont be answering at all. I do not welcome constant annoyance from you
Taecyeon: I dont have an instagram... if i have one i will notify you~ It's sad there's a fake insta that even has my KaTalk profile picㅜㅜ
Jun. K: I'm finally speaking out. My house. And the parking lot. Please stay away. I'll file in a report once I get the CCTV footage.
Chansung: Where would my personal info be.. My poor personal info.. Getting sold at a cheap price... What humiliation you're going through...
Chansung: Why did you use my personal info and kept it for 5 months more... Health Insurance... You don't even tell me the reason
Junho: Please don't follow me home. It's not just me, you're making it hard for the people around me, too. If this continues, I'll have to leave this house. Do you enjoy making me suffer? It's to the point that I can't help but write this. I beg you. Please!
Junho: As I've lived my life as a singer, I continued considering everyone who loves me to be my fans. However, as I encoutered a few individuals who are making it hard even for the people around me, I grew to think about the so-called sasaeng fans.
Junho: For as long as I remain your singer, your actor, your celebrity. I hope I will also remember you all as my lovely fans♥️. I want us to support and cherish each other as we remain polite and respectful. I beg of you
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Nichkhun: "@valsgason: @Khunnie0624 Ever thought of creating an Instagram account like @Jun2daKAY n @0.." no but maybe tumblr? Will let you guys know.
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Me - In my early 40s. Why? Because I've come out of a 20 year monogamous marriage, have never done anything like this before, have the cash and I’m not ready to date yet. I also figured it was safer from disease than Tinder. Plus, well… I’m in my 40s, balding and out of shape…
Where? Australia, in a city where there are legal, licenced brothels.
How many? 5 different Brothels, 10 different sex workers including one private escort (holy shit that actually seems like a lot now that I've written it down).
Why write this? Because it might provide useful info. Any Sex workers on here please feel free to comment, good or bad. These are my opinions, observations, and assumptions - I could be wrong.
Terminology – I’m going to use “Sex worker” or “Escort” instead of “Prostitute” because where I’m from it’s a more respectful term.
BEFORE YOU GO
Many brothels have websites where you can read short bios of the girls. Most of them have fake pictures (the fine print says the image is a "likeness only", and the likenesses are usually not all that accurate). The website usually has a roster, so you can see who is working and when. That way once you get to know the girls you know whether the ones you like are working, and can even make a booking in advance for a girl you particularly like.
All had off the street parking, behind a 6+ foot fence for privacy. Some of them even had sheets to place over your car for further privacy. None of them had large signs out the front. In general they’re the kind of place you could easily drive past without knowing what it is.
All of them had a front door you can’t open without being buzzed in. They must use the video cameras to judge whether you’re ok to enter.
When you’re buzzed in the manager meets you at the door & asks whether you’ve been there before. If you haven’t then they explain how everything works. They’re usually very friendly and try to put you at ease. They then take you to a small room with 2 chairs, or a small couch. If it’s busy they take you to a normal style waiting room where you have the joy of waiting with other men. This only happened once to me. I never made eye contact with anyone. Once a small room is ready you’re taken in and the door is usually shut.
THE SMALL ROOM
The small room is the room where you’re introduced to the girls. It usually has 2 chairs or a small couch, a side table with pornos and sexual health pamphlets, a TV with porn playing with the sound down, and a CCTV camera up in the corner looking at you. There are often signs on the wall with stuff like the standard rates and advice safe sex (with condoms) is mandatory by law, so don’t ask for unprotected sex.
Ok, so I’ve put this before the intros, because it’ll make more sense. There are two rates – one for the brothel and one for the sex worker. The brothel’s rate is purely time based. 20 mins, 30 mins, 45 mins, 1 hour – whatever. It might be about $150 for 30mins. It usually includes the basics of a “massage”, hand job, penis in vagina sex and oral on you, and you get to cum once. That’s all. The sex worker’s rate covers “extras”. What is defined as an extra, and how much the extras are, are entirely up to the individual sex worker. Typical extras include things like kissing the sex worker’s breasts, her kissing your body, you giving oral to the sex worker, kissing each other on the lips, fingering, deep throat blow job vs normal blow job. Basically anything over a hand job and penis in vagina sex.
To make the whole extras thing easier, some girls offer package deals, often called GFE or PSE
GFE = Girlfriend Experience and often includes things like you giving oral on the sex worker, you kissing the sex worker’s breasts, multiple cums.
PSE = Porn Star Experience and includes GFE plus extras like French kissing, deep throat blow job, toys, squirting etc.
One by one the girls will come in and introduce themselves. They’re wearing something sexy. They ask you whether you have any questions.
Ok, I’ll break from the facts at this point to give an opinion… You may think you’re a big shot having women paraded in one at a time for your choice, but I reckon they’re judging you as much as you’re judging them. “Does this guy have money for extras?” / “Do I really want to fuck this guy with no teeth who smells like he hasn’t showered in a week?” / “I’ve just done two bookings in a row, I need a break” / “The rent’s due this week and I need the cash” / “I’ve already cleared $600 today, I don’t really need this” etc.
Back to the facts… The girls will ask whether you have any questions. This is the time to ask what’s included in the standard booking fee vs what’s extra. What are extras for some girls will be inclusions for others and vice versa. In general (but not always) the hotter the girl the less is included in standard, and potentially the more extras will cost. I mean if you were the sex worker and you could charge more than the next girl because you’re smoking hot, wouldn’t you?
Some girls will swing in, show little interest and then leave. Others will sit down to have a chat. I guess it comes down to a lot of different factors (see above for a few examples). Once the girls have all come through the manager reappears and asks which girl you’d like. You pay the manager the standard rate.
The girl you chose comes back & takes you to a bedroom. Depending on the brothel this might be a room with just a shower and bed, or it might be a room with shower, spa bath, massage table, theme room (African etc.). The walk to the bedroom is a good time to engage in a little small talk.
THE EXTRAS, THE INSPECTION & THE SHOWER
Once you reach the room you confirm what extras you want, and pay the girl in cash on the spot.
Rubber glove time. Time to inspect your junk for infection. If you show signs of infection then it’s a no go. Yes, there are rubber gloves and a light. In fact, if this doesn’t happen then I suggest you GTFO because if they didn’t inspect you then they didn’t inspect the other 100 guys with Herpes, Gonorrhoea etc.
After the inspection they tell you to have a shower to freshen up. Fair enough, but keep an eye on the time. From what I can tell, the clock starts ticking the moment the door shuts. I have a feeling some sex workers use this time to wind down the clock “have a quick shower, I’ll be back in 10 mins” WTF? I booked 30 mins, and 10 mins will be spent in the shower by myself?
The better places will have toothpaste, mouthwash and deodorant available for you to use after your shower.
Sometimes the sex worker will offer a massage at the start. I’m guessing this has 2 purposes: Firstly to break the ice between you and her and secondly, to further wind down the clock. Getting started with the sex can be weird. I mean really, both of you are about to have sex with someone you just met. Anyway – the better sex workers will find a way to make this less awkward.
How is the sex? Well there’s good and there’s bad.
2017.05.31 18:56 ahmedreza4621 Cctv sex porn
TL;DR: I am just another fat, lazy, porn and masturbation addict. Also feeling suicidal. Not worth your time.
Hi, You can call me Ahmed, but that's not my real name. I am 17 years old and a Muslim (I try to be). I live in Birmingham, in the U.K. (not USA). My parents sacrificed everything to bring me here and raise me up, their only child, and I've benefitted from this. I got good GCSE and AS grades and now have an offer to study at Cambridge, as long as I meet the grades required in my upcoming A level exams in one week's time.
How do I say the rest? I'll just blurt it out, I was never good at communicating eloquently. Since I was 12, I discovered my dad's porn history on the family laptop and myself got addicted to porn. I never mentioned it to my parents, because my dad would obviously get embarrassed and also my family was conservative Muslim, and sex was taboo (I want to stress that this is a South Asian cultural thing; the religion Islam itself doesn't treat the act of sex itself as something to be ashamed of). When my parents got me a smartphone, it just got worse. I was hooked on to porn and masturbation, and all my knowledge of sex came from the various Internet sources (not just porn sites, but Western Liberal sex ed sites, Christian sex ed sites, Islamic sex ed sites - all of which gave conflicting advice). It was a shameful secret to hold. In school (a boys school), as all my friends entered puberty, they would talk about sex and girls freely, but I was always seen as the religious 'pure' innocent guy who was always uncomfortable and refused to talk when others talked about sex/girls. Little did they know how I would stay up till 4 in the morning jacking off to porn, my sexual desires mixing with the intense shame I felt , in a psychological melting pot, to produce my current mix of fetishes that focus on humiliation and femdom (probably TMI at this point, but oh well I want to keep talking). Or at least, that's my hypothesis for why I have the fetishise I currently do.
There was also a creepy side to me. I don't do this anymore, out of fear of being reported, but from when I was 15 to around 16 and a half years old, I would deliberately stare at women in public to creep them out, and I got aroused by it. I knew I was part of that shameful group of men who creep women out in public. Not sexual assault, but close to sexual harrassmeny by staring even after the woman notices you staring. Fortunately, after about a year and a half I realised I might be reported (the UK has the most concentrated CCTV surveillance system after all) and stopped that behaviour, and felt ashamed that I couldn't control myself. All this sense of shame also led to another weird part of me developing - gore. Yes, after a while, I had this weird logic that porn was showing me artificially beautified women, therefore I should go on shock sites like BestGore and see gore and torture and murder and beheadings to see what the human body 'really' is like. I don't feel it's fucked up, but I know if other people knew about this, they would think it's fucked up.
Anyway, surprisingly, despite my addiction to porn and masturbation I performed at the top at school, and now I hold my offer to study at Cambridge. But something in my character has changed within the past year, which is now prompting me to type this out. I feel like my addiction has worsened in the last year. With one week to go for exams, I am not revising like I normally do. I am spending, out of 16 hours in a day awake, 6-8 hours on edging to porn. Before this year, this type of extreme behaviour was rare. I feel so lethargic, my brain foggy. I've given up my ambitions to study at uni, I feel more and more like a slave to my desires. I've always felt this way since I was 12, but in the last year, it has worsened. I eat a lot more. I was overweight, within the last few months I've become obese and uglier. I just can't organise myself anymore. I feel like I've changed a lot from the boy who got stellar results last year. What's scary is I don't know why I changed.
I've always felt suicidal due to the sense of shame associated with my behaviours. And this has never declined. Of course, I've been on many liberal sex ed sites which preach that porn and masturbation are healthy in moderation and try to tell you that you shouldn't be ashamed of your sexuality. Great stuff. Just didn't help me get out of my worries. I mean, at the end of the day, nobody but me is responsible for my happiness, and if I feel suicidal and end up killing myself (I don't think I am brave enough though) out of a desire to escape this fucked up mind of mine, that's entirely my responsibility and my decision and no one is at blame for it. My behaviours are simply a product of my decision making, but that decision making has gone horribly wrong.
So, now, I dread what I will get on exam results day. I am studious and have a good memory, and I wouldn't be too surprised if I actually did well, but I don't know. I am obviously damaging my chances by watching porn and not revising.
The people I most think about are my parents. They've worked so hard, sacrificed so much, for a worthless pile of shit that doesn't respect them back and argues with them, still has to rely on them to wash his clothes and wake him up in the morning, and is a porn addict and a fat, lazy creep. If they knew what their son really was, they would be devastated. I just hope that Allah grants them paradise in the after life if it exists.
So, yeah, just wanted to get this off my chest.
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2017.05.27 14:47 postorl Stephen Port: The Grindr Killer (long post) [Resolved]
There are quite a few names and stories to keep track of in this write-up so I hope it isn’t too difficult to follow.
Stephen Port, dubbed ‘The Grindr Killer’ by UK media, killed four men and assaulted many others in London between 2014 and 2015, leaving their bodies within mere metres of each other and yet somehow evading detection by the police.
Port met his victims via gay social networking sites. All four victims were young gay men in their early 20s, who died from an overdose of GHB (along with other drugs such as poppers, viagra, and crystal meth), which was used to knock them unconscious in order to sexually assault them.
The BBC made a documentary detailing the case earlier in the year which is where a lot of information comes from. It has interviews with family members and Port’s neighbour and is pretty detailed. Someone has kindly uploaded it to youtube for non-UK people.
The first victim of Port’s was Anthony Walgate. Anthony was 23 years old, originally from Hull, and studying fashion at Middlesex University. Anthony had been known to occasionally work as an escort to earn some money. He was contacted by Port via an escort website on June 17th 2014, who asked to meet with him. Anthony was always vigilant, and told his friends who he was meeting, where, and when. He joked that this was “in case I get killed”.
In the early morning of June 19th, Anthony’s body was found on the doorstep of Port’s flat in Barking. Port himself had called 999, claiming to have found Anthony, collapsed either from a seizure or drunk on the street (the 999 call can be heard in the documentary mentioned above). Port was arrested for perverting the course of justice a week later when police discovered that he had met Anthony via an escort website after claiming not to know him. Port then changed his story, claiming that Anthony had taken a self-inflicted overdose inside his flat while Port himself had gone to work. Police treated Anthony’s death as an accidental overdose, and though they took his DNA, did not investigate Port further.
As would become a common theme, Anthony’s close friends China and Kiera grew frustrated with the police’s attitudes and un-willingness to investigate. His mother asked police to track his phone movements, and to check Anthony’s and Port’s computers, but was told it was “too expensive”. Police took Anthony’s personal effects from his house and took over 2 years to return it.
The second victim was Gabriel Kovari, a 22 year old who had recently moved to the UK from Slovakia. Gabriel had moved to the UK in the hopes of being able to live his life as a gay man in a place where he would be accepted. Gabriel’s body was found on August 28th 2014 in the graveyard of St Margaret’s church. Gabriel, like Anthony, was found to have died from an overdose of GHB.
A few months before his death, Gabriel had met a man called John through Grindr. He was looking for a place to stay. John allowed Gabriel to rent a room at his house, and the two of them became friends. After six weeks, however, Gabriel told John he no longer needed the room. They had a final drink together and said farewell. As it turned out, Gabriel had moved in with Stephen Port. Port’s neighbour Ryan met Gabriel and became friendly with him, but was concerned when Gabriel suddenly disappeared. John tried to contact Gabriel, but was unsuccessful. A week after Gabriel moved out of John’s flat, John received a visit from the police who told him Gabriel had died of an accidental overdose.
John became suspicious after Gabriel’s death, and searched for other unexplained deaths in the area. He was shocked to learn about the death of Anthony Walgate, whose body was found at Port’s flat - just a few hundred metres from the graveyard.
The third victim, Daniel Whitworth, was age 21 when his body was found. Unbelievably, the woman who had found Gabriel’s body also found Daniel’s body in the exact same graveyard just two weeks later.
Alongside Daniel’s body was a suicide note, in which ‘Daniel’ claimed to have given Gabriel an overdose by accident after attending a chem-sex party together and then committed suicide out of guilt. Part of the note was shown to Daniel’s step-mother Mandy, who said she couldn’t be 100% sure one way or the other whether it was Daniel’s writing. Police, however, documented that she had positively identified Daniel’s handwriting. She and Daniel’s father were eventually given access to Daniel’s full ‘suicide note’, which both of them said categorically did not sound like Daniel. The note contained the line “don’t blame the guy I was with last night”, but when Mandy raised this with police, they said they “did not know and may never know” to who the note referred.
After hearing about the third death, Gabriel’s roommate John became even more suspicious. John contacted the police, who were unwilling to give him information. Meanwhile, in an attempt to build his cover story, Stephen Port used a false identity to spread information on facebook of Daniel and Gabriel’s supposed ‘relationship’, and their engagement in chem-sex parties. John, again, gave police this new information. He then contacted ‘Pink News’, an LGBT news organisation, and asked for help in raising concerns with police that a serial killer may be at large. The editor of ‘Pink News’ contacted police, who were not willing to engage with the LGBT community in relation to the deaths and re-iterated that there was no link between the cases.
In an inquest into Daniel’s death, the coroner explained that she had some concerns surrounding the police investigation. The bedsheet that Daniel was wrapped in and the bottle of GHB had not been tested for forensic evidence, and Daniel had been found to have been “manually handled” prior to his death.
After an open verdict was returned in the case, Mandy asked police what the next steps in the investigation were. She was dismissed by them and told nothing more was to be done.
Three months after the inquest into Daniel’s death in 2015, another body was found. The third body to be found in the graveyard (and fourth victim overall) was Jack Taylor. Jack was 25 years old and living with his parents in Dagenham, where he worked as a forklift truck driver. Jack’s sister Donna recalls her parents being told by police in a matter-of-fact tone that Jack was dead, and that needle marks and powder were found on him. This did not sit right with Donna, who knew her brother to be vocally anti-drugs.
Just over a week after Jack’s death, Donna and her sister Jen visited Dagenham police station to receive an update only to discover that there was no ‘case’ – police were satisfied that Jack had simply sat down in the graveyard and had an overdose.
Donna and Jen remained persistent. Like Gabriel’s friend John, they conducted research and found links between the cases. They raised these similarities with the police, who dismissed them as being connected. They continued to pester the police until one officer agreed to show them the place where Jack’s body was found. They met the officers at Barking train station, where they were informed of CCTV footage showing Jack meeting a man and leaving with him. Donna and Jen had never been notified of this previously. Donna and Jen were surprised by how carefree the police seemed to be about the identity of the man in the CCTV footage.
After more persistence from Donna and Jen, police reluctantly agreed to release photos of the man on the CCTV footage to the public appealing for information. Two days later, Port was identified and arrested.
Stephen Port was found guilty on November 23rd 2016 and sentenced to life in prison for the murders and a series of sexual assaults. It seems as if police are considering whether Port can be linked to a series of other GHB-related deaths. 17 police officers are being investigated to see if they should face disciplinary action.
There is no way to frame this case in a way which makes the police seem good. The family members of the victims were blunt in explaining that they believe the police’s ignorance and homophobia played a part in why they did not link the victims or seem willing to invest time and resources into catching the killer. There seemed to be an attitude amongst investigators that being gay was a pre-cursor to risk-taking behaviours such as taking a cocktail of drugs and attending chem-sex parties which led to accidental deaths in each case. Similarly shoddy investigations have been conducted in the deaths of gay men in the past, such as in the cases of Dennis Nilsen and Colin Ireland.
Police did not question Port’s neighbour Ryan, who had on one occasion visited Port’s flat and seen a large container containing a cacophony of drugs. No handwriting expert was contacted to check Daniel Whitworth’s suicide note, nor did they check it for fingerprints or DNA. Particularly shocking is that the same woman walking her dog found two of the bodies in the same graveyard on different days, and yet police didn’t make the connection. The woman herself was incredibly suspicious, and shocked that the police did not seem more concerned.
Connections between victims were made by the public as early as the second victim, and had police investigated then, it is possible that Daniel and Jack would not have been killed. John’s concerns, along with Daniel’s step-mother Mandy’s, fell on deaf ears. Credit must go to them and Jack’s sisters Donna and Jen for fighting to bring justice for their loved ones.
I'm curious to know people's thoughts as to the polices (in)actions. Do you think, with thorough investigating, they could have caught Port earlier? Do you think it was homophobia that caused this issue? And do you think Stephen Port may have had more victims?
BBC Documentary: How Police Missed the Grindr Killer https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EbYbP4gXe6Y
Profiles of the Victims https://www.theguardian.com/uk-news/2016/nov/23/stephen-ports-victims-anthony-walgate-gabriel-kovari-daniel-whitworth-jack-taylor
Long Form Article https://www.vice.com/en_uk/article/did-police-homophobia-allow-a-serial-killer-to-target-gay-men-for-over-a-year-grindr-barking
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